Nothing Whatever

Kalok: So even If I got Seven hundred Demons Who'd Gladly jump into your pants, You STILL wouldn't consider yourself attractive??

Loki: No. If I am not attracted to ME it Doesn't count. I am a Slave to My Vanity. A Willing Slave. And I still Fail to see the point of all this gibberish. You know you can't help someone who isn't willing to be helped in the way you think they should be.

Kalok: You're fucking impossible. I don't understand why you don't want to be helped.

Loki: What? Are you Going to Track Down the Angry and Self Righteous Sonova Bitch who did this to me and Demand some sort of Deal?? He would laugh at you. I don't even know who or what did it. Or better still get yourself Beholden to Some Evil bastard like Warren in exchange for my Vanity?? Surely Not Darling, I'd never ask that of myself, so I couldn't ask it of you, or anyone. Then Say you did something so Phenomenally Stupid... What would you Really accomplish?? I am Restored my Angelic form. What if I don't Like it?? What if I simply ignore it and stay in regular old me form instead... Because I like this one for now? What would you have accomplished?
For the Love of God, Just Drop it. I refuse to accept my Form. Because I don't have to. I have gotten around it in every way. And that is Fine. I won't Visit such ugliness on anyone that I love, including myself.

I don't see what the problem is to you anyway.

Kalok: Warren Agrees with me. That you are Running away. That you're accepting Fake over Real and True. and it can't make you happy. You can't evolve that way.

Loki: Oh Yes you Can. Anything is Possible, Kalok Lover Of Magus, Now Relative of Lucifer By less than Three Degrees of Separation. Small Fucking World. And I have taken care of that which Made me unhappy. I came Clean, I told everyone. I Showed Everyone. No one Cared, Just as you Said. And if No one cares about My true shape, then No one will care if I Stay in this one. Hoorah! I am Insignificant. Enough time has passed in Hell that No one Gives a Shit about When or Why I was Excommunicated. I can come and Go Freely there again, Most likely. But Why?
I have no Friends there. Not like you.
And Warren and Bella aren't my Friends. Granted, they refrain from killing me for spite or food, But I think that's more out of Respect For YOU and Nilofer than Anything else. I'm Glad I AMUSE them Enough that they laugh at me. That May be of some worth...

Kalok: Don't Get all EMO. You say stupid Shit when you're Emo. And you don't Want to Put words in their Mouths. Warren Does think it's Funny because you are Being Re-diddly-damn-Diculous! You and your Fucking "I am a Monster" issues. It's HILARIOUS to see this Fucking Hard ass Teacher Demon all deluded about himself to this degree! Warren in Legion form is a Right Proper Monster. I would have Still Fucked him If I'd have ever got the Chance... JUST to see what it was Like... And I'd Fuck you no Matter what Shape you were in... Because Form is Emptiness. Emptiness is Form. It Means Nothing to me. AS it means nothing to Anyone who's been Paying attention for the last Several hundred Years.

Loki: YOU are the one attached to Form here! Preach Zen at me all you like, You are the one who thinks I should be some way other than the way that I am, and then Turns around and Quotes Words at me Who's Direct and Specific meaning is that it Doesn't Bloody Well Matter at all!

Rath: You are Both Right.

Daemeon: She can't make you do anything Mister Loki.

Kalok: I'm not trying to MAKE him do anything. I'm trying to Persuade him not to keep his Head up his ASS. There is an Aspect of Himself that he Does not Love. Therefore his Experience of Self Love cannot, In my Mind, Be complete. And it will be this Incomplete experience of Self Love that he Brings to Any Relationship that he Enters. That is what Bothers. That is what is Wrong.

Loki: And if I Do not Define Myself In Terms of My Body? What then?

Kalok: :: points a Finger at his Nose :: You are NOT your Body, But Your Body is a part of you! it is Not the Whole, But is included in the SUM. Your Body is of Your Own Creation--
Loki: No, it isn't.
Kalok: LET ME FINISH! And If you disown any part of that Creation, Call it Bad... Reject it in any way, You call the Whole Lot of it Bad. You are a triune Being, Just like everyone else in here- You don't get a choice about that, that's the way it fucking is. If you decide that your body is not a part of you then it will Waste away.

Loki: No, It Won't. And I Never said that my Body wasn't a part of me. I Clearly stated that I was a Slave to Vanity, and You can't have Looks without a Body. And I am at Choice, in every moment, to a Profoundly Fluid Degree because of my powers and magical talents, as to what form I take. I am Almost as much a Physical Secular Being as You. In Fact there was a time, Kalok, Not long ago, when it was ME that others saw and Reacted to in Amy, Not you. You have Grown immensely. And it is Good. Evolution is not a straight line, however. And we all experience times of immense growth. And then Times of little Growth. I am Growing right now Emotionally. Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it's not there, happening or Real.

Kalok: Then Learn to Love yourself. ALL of yourself. If it is Really Nothing to you, then What would it hurt you to Come to Love this form you seem to so Despise? Why do you Love that nasty Drippy Slimy Form you take when you're all Emo More than this One that you feel You were Cursed with?

Loki: Simply because it was not My Choice. Surely YOU, Who swear By Free will, To Whom Any act against the Free Will Of another is a Grinding Affront to your Very Soul... Surely You of all people Could empathize with the fact that I Hate it Because it was Forced On Me against My Will. it has nothing to Do with the Form itself. it is about the fact that I was Denied a Basic Universal Right and Somehow Denied it FOREVER MORE. Until I found a way around it. Which I have. All rules are Made to be bent and tested. And I have made this penalty insignificant to me. I'd have Thought that you would instead be Proud with me, that I totally subverted the curse.

Kalok: ::grins:: You're dancing around my Point. SO, I will Thrust more acutely. Now that you have Totally subverted this Curse, Now that you can become anything, Including an exact replica of your original shape, Why not Love this form that you hate... Why not make that the Final Fuck you to the bastard that laid the curse upon you? What if that Breaks the Damn curse? I mean If you Could Love that Form, Would it Not Cease to be a Curse? And if it was no Longer a Curse in your Mind... It would No longer have any Power over you. And There are Many Spells that simply Fail when they loose all power over the subject.